1. Pretty remarkable day

    I can say today is a quiet peaceful sunday for me. Not only because I got to relax and enjoy those awesome massages but there is unexpected phone call I had to make and unexpected news coming from unexpected person that moves my heart and brain at the same time. 

    Her name is Syarifah. We call her Ipeh. She’s religiously funny yet calm. I love talking to her. Every time I talk to her, she made me realize how much worthy life is. She is a nurse at gov hospital. So today, I called her. She told me about her father’s accident and she has to take care of him now. I felt her misery.

    However, she still can laugh and tell me “nurse jokes”. She asked me afterwards, “how’s life been going”.. I can’t tell her much because I don’t wanna add extra sad moments in our conversation. Although I really really wanna tell her about EVERY SINGLE THING that happened to me recently. 

    But, suddenly God led her to tell me what I might need to hear long time ago. 

    “you know ki.. everyday I watch people dying, having their last time. Kids, Uncles, Aunties and those really really old people who can’t afford appropriate treatment for their illness.

    There was this one uncle, I swear ki.. He was a funny, kind, friendly and good person. He had bloody cough. He told me one day that he’d been married for 15 years and still got no kids. But he smiled politely.

    He said “I think know why. I realize that that all this while, I am not good in being grateful to what I am having and already asking more. He might know what’s best. If I have kids now, my baby may become orphan faster than all his/her friends. Stupid me, still smoking like crazy monkey.”

    Listening to her, my heart was like this uncle must be really suffering all his life. Poor him. he should’ve realized how precious his life is. But at the same time, my brain gave me tight slap… Am I any better?

    The moment I thought of that.. My friend cut the thought.

     ”… not so long after that, one of the nurse on shift informed me that this uncle passed away.. Can you imagine,ki? I don’t understand why he must go through all of this pain. The wife approached me next day to kindly share with me her loss.”

    I stoned. Then my mouth opened and said something I should have said to my self.

    “Allah gave him all that because He loved that uncle and his wife. Don’t think of the negative reasons.. No way Allah hated his own creature. Maybe having kids might make him suffer more with the sickness he knew afterwards. But you see him how he continued his life happily with what he had instead of being sad about something he didn’t have or even exist.”

    I stared away. Suddenly I feel enlightened. 

    After I put down the phone, I prayed cause it was already maghrib anyway.

    I fell upon my face. 

    “Ya Allah… Please forgive me for not being grateful of life. I know I have not been talking to you for quiet sometimes but I can see how much you still want to talk to me. I appreciate that. I should have seen the joyful side more often. But thank you for giving me awesome friends. They have been helpful really. I am so lucky to be what I am now. It could be worse but it wasn’t as bad as what those people faced. Alhamdulillah, I feel sooo much better now.”

    I just opened my eyes even bigger than before. Another reason to move on. I am just gonna face whatever problems I have to and carry on. Includes telling my parents responsibly about the ipod I just lost. Let things flow the way it should. Might be difficult, but facing a problem is the best way to forget the pain it caused. 

    Thanks, Ipeh… although you might not know how much your story means for me.. I think HE sent you on purpose :) 

    Now I am just gonna hit the sack and dream about my holiday and alllll the awesome stuff one could possibly dream about. 

    Good night peeps. Let’s start an amazing Monday tomorrow!!! Wohooooo