I WISH I WERE A CHILD AGAIN

"When you really want to move on, listen more to your brain. Because at this time, brain knows..."

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 12:58:31 +0800

“When you really want to move on, listen more to your brain. Because at this time, brain knows better.”

"Stressing & obsessing are not my style. I was raised to say fuck you with a high class smile. In..."

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 14:12:21 +0800

“Stressing & obsessing are not my style. I was raised to say fuck you with a high class smile. In case you haven’t guessed, I am not going to be there when it’s convenient for you. -”

- @TheseDamnQuote

Pretty remarkable day

Sun, 26 Feb 2012 23:14:00 +0800

I can say today is a quiet peaceful sunday for me. Not only because I got to relax and enjoy those awesome massages but there is unexpected phone call I had to make and unexpected news coming from unexpected person that moves my heart and brain at the same time.

Her name is Syarifah. We call her Ipeh. She’s religiously funny yet calm. I love talking to her. Every time I talk to her, she made me realize how much worthy life is. She is a nurse at gov hospital. So today, I called her. She told me about her father’s accident and she has to take care of him now. I felt her misery.

However, she still can laugh and tell me “nurse jokes”. She asked me afterwards, “how’s life been going”.. I can’t tell her much because I don’t wanna add extra sad moments in our conversation. Although I really really wanna tell her about EVERY SINGLE THING that happened to me recently.

But, suddenly God led her to tell me what I might need to hear long time ago.

“you know ki.. everyday I watch people dying, having their last time. Kids, Uncles, Aunties and those really really old people who can’t afford appropriate treatment for their illness.

There was this one uncle, I swear ki.. He was a funny, kind, friendly and good person. He had bloody cough. He told me one day that he’d been married for 15 years and still got no kids. But he smiled politely.

He said “I think know why. I realize that that all this while, I am not good in being grateful to what I am having and already asking more. He might know what’s best. If I have kids now, my baby may become orphan faster than all his/her friends. Stupid me, still smoking like crazy monkey.”

Listening to her, my heart was like this uncle must be really suffering all his life. Poor him. he should’ve realized how precious his life is. But at the same time, my brain gave me tight slap… Am I any better?

The moment I thought of that.. My friend cut the thought.

”… not so long after that, one of the nurse on shift informed me that this uncle passed away.. Can you imagine,ki? I don’t understand why he must go through all of this pain. The wife approached me next day to kindly share with me her loss.”

I stoned. Then my mouth opened and said something I should have said to my self.

“Allah gave him all that because He loved that uncle and his wife. Don’t think of the negative reasons.. No way Allah hated his own creature. Maybe having kids might make him suffer more with the sickness he knew afterwards. But you see him how he continued his life happily with what he had instead of being sad about something he didn’t have or even exist.”

I stared away. Suddenly I feel enlightened.

After I put down the phone, I prayed cause it was already maghrib anyway.

I fell upon my face.

“Ya Allah… Please forgive me for not being grateful of life. I know I have not been talking to you for quiet sometimes but I can see how much you still want to talk to me. I appreciate that. I should have seen the joyful side more often. But thank you for giving me awesome friends. They have been helpful really. I am so lucky to be what I am now. It could be worse but it wasn’t as bad as what those people faced. Alhamdulillah, I feel sooo much better now.”

I just opened my eyes even bigger than before. Another reason to move on. I am just gonna face whatever problems I have to and carry on. Includes telling my parents responsibly about the ipod I just lost. Let things flow the way it should. Might be difficult, but facing a problem is the best way to forget the pain it caused.

Thanks, Ipeh… although you might not know how much your story means for me.. I think HE sent you on purpose :)

Now I am just gonna hit the sack and dream about my holiday and alllll the awesome stuff one could possibly dream about.

Good night peeps. Let’s start an amazing Monday tomorrow!!! Wohooooo

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Wed, 22 Feb 2012 01:58:06 +0800

When your teacher says "I'm gonna start calling on random people..."

Mon, 20 Feb 2012 11:14:38 +0800

When your teacher says "I'm gonna start calling on random people...":

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post-valentine stuff

Mon, 20 Feb 2012 00:22:00 +0800

A friend of mine asked me today, what do I think about love? you know, after all the up and downs that happened in my love life. I was stuck for a while, thinking of a perfect answer to answer before making me sound like a cynic.

Obviously, my answer won’t be “love is everything, lalalalala”. That’s kind of cliche ? Yes ? No ?

One thing that I always always believe no matter what,

Love makes your life better. if it doesn’t, you may consider to stop thinking it’s love.

Basically, both being single and being in relationship have their pros and cons. The thing is, true love always makes you feel better but love is not always true. I, my self, just ended a relationship. God knows why. I just conclude, if you can’t love someone in a right way, not only you making your partner feel “not better”, you make your self feel worse. Then what’s the point of being in love?

Same thing happens when you’re in love, you want to share the joy with your relatives.. or ask for advice if something happened. But if there’s no way you can share in the first place, because nobody can’t know. You might as well just be single and enjoy life, unless there is again what I said True love.

Eventhough people say, “Love needs sacrifice.” You’re selfish if you just expect the good things from someone” it is rather true. why? When you love someone, it is fair to ask your lover to dress up or do something you want to see sometimes. But not all the time. because then, you change an individual. You don’t love the person the way they are. You just love their imaginary look. But you will be surprised how many people out there, feel the need to be somebody they are not to make somebody happy when sometimes it’s not even affecting and not asked. But you thought it was.

Afterall, I believe there should be a space for understanding each other and learning to accept weakness of each other. But only, if you let it happen and willingly willing to work things out.

Another perspective about “love needs sacrifice”. How many people out there you see willing to let themselves be miserable and suffer “in love”. Trust me, it is the same classic reason of using that “love needs sacrifice” as an excuse to bully themselves… they refuse to let go and move on.

I should probably emphasize, I am not a cynic. I am normal human being and still capable of loving a person. I don’t suggest that you should easily give up on love, but do it rightly. Be sure of the time, and the right person. Know what you want. It’s weird how you convince somebody that you love them and next seconds you tell them you are confused with what you want. Apology, can’t always be solution. Maturity is much more needed.

Ask your self “am I ready to be in love anyway?” , may help. I know many people who would have done anything for love, in the end not only they lose their love, they also lose themselves. or maybe make others lose their love too because being in love suddenly seems ridiculous?

In my previous post, I talked about not wanting to be the reason of him being unhappy.. same thing goes for me, I don’t want the person I care about become the reason of me being unhappy. Simply, it doesn’t work that way.

Ladies and gentlemen, my friends, what I’m trying to say is, it is worse to lose your self than to lose someone you love. Because after all the things that happen, you ONLY have your self and if you have lost your self in the first place, what do you have at the end? You don’t want that to happen to your self.

I might not be the love expert, but I know that we shouldn’t be naive and sacrifice our selves for something that might not be true. Yes I know, when you have your attentions to somebody, everything seems true.. but really,really take sometimes alone and ask your heart what it says. You know when you know it. Even if you refuse to admit you feel or not feel true love, deep down only you know.

With true love, you only realize and understand how beautiful your life is with this additional person around you comparing when you are alone.

Just believe, that.. Being in relationship can be as astounding as being single.

With the right person, at the right time, in the right way.

Ironic?

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 11:02:03 +0800

You wanna know something. They said after hurricane comes a rainbow, but even the rainbow gives me hurricane.

Who are you..

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 03:25:00 +0800

At first, i thought you could teach me how to live my life like yours. Because it’s crazy like how i always imagined. But, it seems impossible for you. I still don’t understand why. . I was always excited to hear about your days cz it sounded out of control. Full of insanity. I just don’t know now whether i was the one you want to share your story with, after what you said the last time we spoke. Never once i thought of stopping you being who you wanna be. From the beginning i told you, you just need to be your self. But what happened?

I don’t wanna be the reason of you being unhappy.

I was, you know, being me. When suddenly I thought of this... how long does it take a giraffe to throw up ..

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 14:38:40 +0800

I was, you know, being me. When suddenly I thought of this... how long does it take a giraffe to throw up ..:

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Laughter is the best medicine

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Wed, 15 Feb 2012 14:38:32 +0800

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Laughter is the best medicine

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Wed, 15 Feb 2012 13:53:33 +0800

Another bimbotic story?

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 10:31:35 +0800

another bimbotic story?

5 minutes of happiness

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 02:10:00 +0800

According to the title, the length of happiness that i had with you was metaphorically that short. But i want you to know that i enjoyed every single time with you. Every moment. Maybe this is too sudden.. Eventhough i was sad for a while, but somehow i managed to understand that we are impossible. You don’t have the heart to break your friend’s heart, and neither do i. I guess this time we just have to accept the unfair situation. I’m sorry mr.rainbow . Although i started to enjoy your company, enjoy your jokes, maybe we just….. You told me you want to meet me like normal couple does, but you can’t.. And i can’t deny that it breaks my heart too.
I feel sorry i can’t make you feel any better. But this is it.

surely i’m going to miss your calls.. the way you look at me.. Your corny jokes .. But this might be the best for us. Sigh.

Good night .

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Mon, 13 Feb 2012 18:53:55 +0800

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Thu, 09 Feb 2012 14:02:27 +0800

Bed time story

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 23:30:28 +0800

Ada seorang pak tua bijak didatangi oleh seorang pemuda yang sedang dirundung dilema dan masalah.

Pak tua bijak mendengarkan dengan seksama, laluia mengambil segenggam serbuk pahit dan meminta anak muda itu untuk mengambil segelas air.. ditaburkannya serbuk pahit itu ke dalam gelas dan diaduk perlahan.

“Coba minum ini dan katakan bagaimana rasanya?” ujar pak tua.

“Pahit sekali!” jawab pemuda itu.

Pak tua tersenyum, lalu mengajak pemuda itu untuk berjalan ke tepi telaga di belakang rumahnya. ditaburkannya lagi serbuk pahit itu ke telaga.

“Coba ambil air dari telaga ini dan minumlah….. Bagaimana rasanya?”

“Segar.” sahut si pemuda.

“Apakah kamu merasakan pahit di dalam air itu?” tanya pak tua.

“Tidak.”

Pak tua berkata,

“Anak muda, dengarkan baik-baik… pahitnya kehidupan sama seperti segenggam serbuk pahit ini, tak lebih..tak kurang. Jumlah dan rasa pahitnya pun sama. Tapi kepahitan yang kita rasakan sangat tergantung dari wadah yang kita miliki.

Kepahitan itu akan di dasarkan dari perasaan tempat kita meletakkannya. Jadi saat kamu merasakan kepahitan dan kegagalan dalam hidup, hanya ada satu yang dapat kamu lakukan….

Lapangkanlah dadamu menerima semuanya itu, Luaskanlah hatimu untuk menampung setiap kepahitan itu. Hatimu adalah wadah itu. Kalbumu adalah tempat kamu menampung segalanya.

Jangan jadikan hatimu seperti gelas, buatlah laksana telaga yang mampu menampung setiap kepahitan itu dan merubahnya menjadi kesegaran di dalam hatimu.”

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Wed, 08 Feb 2012 18:47:52 +0800

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Follow this blog and laugh some more

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Wed, 08 Feb 2012 18:47:45 +0800

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Wed, 08 Feb 2012 18:47:37 +0800

Reblog if you still remember an insult someone told you, even if it was years ago.

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 18:43:00 +0800

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laughing medicine here!!